i want to believe embedded in every hello is a goodbye
that to be greeted on this earth means we are welcomed as the departed
but invariably everyone lingers.
like sap dripping down trees we all become embers
I don’t know how to grieve you as part of the living
for even with all this distance between us our silence holds weighl
ike an amalgamation of stones on a beach your waves seep right through
me
and it isn’t the fact that you aren’t around
that hurts me the most
but all the ways i watched you slowly disappear
they enrapture my memories like fog
as i try to grasp on to all the moments
i knew you were there
only to watch you fade away into your darkness
and i find that it is easier to forget that you exist
than to realize i am parched
for it is to recognize that my tongue
knows drought like a twin
and it is not that i was never loved by you
rather you could not love me in all the ways that i needed
for all the buckets of water you fought so hard to carry
it was still not enough to feed both our thirsts
and in a way the greatest lesson you have ever taught me
is to find solace in the rain
to form my hands into a cup
collect what is given
and drink